My heart is beating hard in my chest and I haven't done so much as half a sun salutation in the last week.
I've just been proposed to, said a tentative 'yes', had an audience with my parents where they gave their blessing and, effectively, said an actual Yes.
I am afraid, very afraid. But I also just got down on my knees and prayed to God, thanking him for this opportunity in my life, an opportunity for happiness in spite of the numerous and grave sins - social and real - of my past.
I wanted to write to capture this moment. Its a most delicious feeling of being wanted and loved. It is supposed to be the start of a new day in my life. Most importantly, this is the biggest decision of my life and I am making it alone - this is 100% me. Mum and Dad have graciously stepped aside. This is part of the reason I am fearful.
Worry is who I am. So its natural that anxiety dogs my happiness.
I've just been proposed to, said a tentative 'yes', had an audience with my parents where they gave their blessing and, effectively, said an actual Yes.
I am afraid, very afraid. But I also just got down on my knees and prayed to God, thanking him for this opportunity in my life, an opportunity for happiness in spite of the numerous and grave sins - social and real - of my past.
I wanted to write to capture this moment. Its a most delicious feeling of being wanted and loved. It is supposed to be the start of a new day in my life. Most importantly, this is the biggest decision of my life and I am making it alone - this is 100% me. Mum and Dad have graciously stepped aside. This is part of the reason I am fearful.
Worry is who I am. So its natural that anxiety dogs my happiness.
